Sunday, October 19, 2014

Writing Hang-ups

Last weekend I attended a writer’s conference, and I came home completely energized, full of ideas, ready to write and submit my work for publication. There’s just one small complication: that’s all I want to do, but there are so many other things I must do. Like laundry. And dishes. And preparing meals for my family. Oh, and the small matter of these galleys that have been sitting on my desk for several days now and that I am supposed to be proofreading. Except the author attempted to use the plural noun “architects” as a verb (shudder) and did not know the difference between the noun insight and its verbal homonym incite (double shudder). And I know that’s why I do what I do, but right at this moment I don’t feel like it. I’m still back there with all my word people throwing around heady ideas like creating believable emotion in prose and writing theological memoir. I want to be writing my own stuff, not reading someone else's.

So I decided I’d write this blog post because, hey, at least I’m writing something. And  maybe…just maybe…spilling these thoughts onto a page will help me come down off the conference high long enough to actually get some work done.

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Dear Dad...

It’s that time again, October, when all the trees are losing their leaves…and we remember the day when we lost you six years ago. Except we didn’t lose you. Not forever. You’re waiting for us to catch you up, I know. It’s just that the waiting on this end of eternity seems to take an eternity, and I  miss you—we miss you—and I wish I could call you up like I used to do just to hear your voice or ask you a simple question that I probably already knew the answer to but wanted to hear you say it, just to make sure I was getting it right. Because that’s the way I am, I need to know I’m right, and you always seemed to understand that even though I’m sure we knocked heads again and again because of it.



We now have an Amish store here in Tustin. You’d love it, Dad. Ben and I stopped there this morning on our way home from helping rake leaves at church. We bought a dozen donuts and thought of you as we ate some of them, because you would love their soft, doughy sweetness. You would love everything about this little store: the warm glowing gas lights suspended from the ceiling, the bulk foods and soup mixes, the bakery and shelves of candy, the rustic furniture and handmade items. It’s like all your favorite stores in Shipshewana under one roof. Most of all you’d love the people who own it. And just like you did with Mr. Hochstetler, the buggy maker in Indiana, you would get to know them and they would become your friends and you would greet them by name each time you’d come to visit us. 

Ben misses you. Some nights he still cries when he’s had a hard day and gets to thinking about Grandpa, wishing he could tell you all about it and hear you say, “Cheer up, things could be worse.” I think you’d be proud to see the young man he’s grown into. He loves Jesus, he loves people, and he has a compassionate heart. I’m eager to see where the Lord leads him in life. I hope God still lets you have little glimpses of our happiest moments here on earth, because I know you’d get as much joy out of seeing him nearly all grown up as you always got from spending time with him as a little boy. I’m so thankful he holds your memory close.

Today I just want you to know how much we all miss you and love you, Dad. Till we meet at Jesus’ feet…


Friday, October 17, 2014

Eating a Plum

Whenever she was sad to see something come to an end, my mom would say, "It's like eating a plum." Meaning the experience was so delicious, but it's gone in only one or two bites. The sweetness lingers after the fruit is gone, but the memory of the sweetness is what we hold onto.

It's hard to believe that a whole week has flown by since the Breathe Christian Writer's Conference at Cornerstone University. I'm back in my daily routine of teaching, reading, meal prep, laundry...but with a renewed energy to make time each day for writing. Last weekend blessed me in a big way--the speakers, the workshops, but mostly the people. I've never met such an encouraging bunch of wordies! This was my first time attending Breathe, and I'm already looking forward to next year's conference. I plan to make this a regular retreat, something I can look forward to all year.

I had the great privilege and honor of helping to open the conference by reading my poem "The Work of Our Hands." Thanks so much to all of you who gave me encouraging feedback on that. The workshops I attended were top-notch...and there were so many to choose from! I was particularly encouraged by Matt Landrum's excellent poetry workshops and how he demonstrated the importance of friendships for the writing life. Cynthia Beach's workshop "Creating Believable Emotion in Fiction and Nonfiction" applies as much to poetry as it does to prose. And Mike Wittmer's talk on Saturday morning was deeply meaningful as he pointed out that hope is one of the most important words for us as Christians and as writers. We need hope to survive. We need hope for the process of writing. And since we have to answer to God for every word we write, let's be sure to give our readers hope.

One of my goals for the weekend was to make connections with other writers, and I did. I even found someone willing to meet me halfway between Cadillac and Grand Rapids to have a mini writer's group. We hope to start in early November, and the thought of having that mutual encouragement and accountability keeps me writing.

Thanks, God, for working it out for me to attend Breathe so that I could catch my breath. Help me in turn to breathe out your words of hope and light in this dark world.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Memories of My Dad

Today would have been my dad’s 80th birthday. This holiday weekend was always his weekend and will forever be linked with my memories of him. Were he still with us today, rest assured all his kids, grandkids, and great-grandkids would have gathered to honor him with plenty of food and chocolate cake.

Earlier this week, a friend of mine posted the following poem on her facebook page, and it reminded me so much of my dad. I absorbed the words, and they were like a warm massage for my heart that ached with missing Dad. And the words recalled to mind one of my favorite childhood memories of him.

NOT FORGOTTEN
I learned to ride
the two wheel bicycle
with my father.
He oiled the chain
clothes-pinned playing cards
to the spokes, put on the basket
to carry my lunch.
By his side, I learned balance
and took on speed
centered behind the wide
handlebars, my hands
on the white grips 
my feet pedaling.
One moment he was
holding me up
and the next moment
although I didn't know it
he had let go.
When I wobbled, suddenly
afraid, he yelled keep going—
keep going!
Beneath the trees in the driveway
the distance increasing between us
I eventually rode until he was out of sight.
I counted on him.


That he could hold me was a given
that he could release me was a gift.
(SHEILA PACKA in *Cloud Birds* © 2011, Wildwood River Press)



When I was five or six years old, Dad pulled out an old, bluish-green two-wheeler with coaster brakes that had been my brother’s bike. He dusted off the cobwebs, oiled the chain, bolted on training wheels, and taught me to ride it. I rode that bike up and down our driveway and out to his shop time and again that summer and the next. I was terrified, however, to give up my training wheels and would not let him remove them. One day when I rode out to the shop and asked him to check the air in one of my tires, Dad tricked me, saying he was busy right then but he’d call me on the intercom when it was ready. Awhile later, I walked back to the shop with Mom, hopped on my bike, and took off down the drive. I rode all the way down, turned around, and rode all the way back up to where my parents stood laughing in the doorway of one of the service bays. As it turned out, Dad had checked the air in my tires and also removed the training wheels without telling me. He was sure of my ability to ride even though I wasn’t.

I outgrew that old bike pretty quickly, and I really wanted a new one of my very own, not a hand-me-down. When May 1982 rolled around, I was 7 years old and praying for a new bike for my 8th birthday in June. As it turned out, I wouldn’t have to wait that long. My dad surprised me on his birthday with a shiny new girl’s bike. It was creamy white with navy blue pinstripes, hand brakes, and three speeds. I didn’t know what to say at first, until I realized this bike wasn’t for Dad—it was for me! He gave me a birthday present on his birthday! And that’s just how my dad was.

I loved that bike. I even decorated it with crepe paper streamers and American flags to ride it in the Fourth of July parade that year. But what made it so special was the fact that Dad gave it to me on his birthday.


Happy birthday, Dad. We miss you. Love always, Amy Joy

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Review of "The Realms Thereunder" by Ross Lawhead

My husband and I have long been fans of Stephen Lawhead. So when I saw that his son Ross was releasing a debut novel, I couldn’t wait to get my hands on an advance reading copy. The Realms Thereunder is the first book in what is planned as the Ancient Earth Trilogy (Thomas Nelson, 2011; ISBN 978-1-59554-909-0). In all fairness, I have to preface this review by saying that I wasn’t always a fan Stephen—I never could get into the Dragon King trilogy. Truth be told, I tend to favor his historical fiction more than his sci-fi and fantasy. But Stephen’s writing got better as he matured, and I hope the same will be true of his son.

Lovers of Middle Earth, pay heed. The portions of The Realms Thereunder that are set in the fantasy world of “ancient earth” seem very much patterned after Tolkien’s imaginary world. When Lawhead describes elves, gnomes, trolls, changelings, and other magical creatures, as well as the underground world of Niưergeard, I can almost see the Lord of the Rings movies playing in my head. Imitation is the highest form of flattery, so it’s pretty obvious who the author reads and admires.

The story starts slow and centers around two main characters. Freya is a student at Oxford University; Daniel lives on the streets of Oxford and does his best to survive. Seemingly opposites, the two are linked by a childhood secret that stems from their mysterious disappearance years before. Readers discover where the children disappeared to in the “Before” sections. Everything begins in a cathedral archway and then things get complicated. The pair awaken sleeping knights, meet an ancient wizard, and set out on a quest to defeat the forces of evil. Since returning to this world, Freya has been trying to convince herself that it never happened; Daniel has spent his years trying to return to Niưergeard. The two find themselves in serious danger once again when Daniel is pulled off to Elfland and Freya is held captive within her own mind (I have to say, this story element reminded me a bit of something out of a Charles Williams novel). The action does pick up a bit near the end, but then the book

Another element to the story, which I believe will prove to set up the next two books in the trilogy, is the character of Alex Simpson. Alex is an interesting bloke who fights against the forces of darkness with a sword—a really big sword. Much like special forces or black ops, he spends most of this book hunting dragons in the Scottish highlands before coming to the aid of the two protagonists. I’ll be interested to see where Lawhead takes Alex…for some reason, my mind conjures images of St. George meets the Highlander.

Overall, I like the concept of this story. Much of Ross’s Celtic mythology echoes that of his father. In reality, however, the back and forth between “Before” and “Now” was confusing, as were the shifts between Oxford and the Scottish Highlands. Being that this is a trilogy, Lawhead has two more books in which to make all of this clear for readers. I, for one, am game to keep reading and find out where the story takes us.

Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from the publisher through the BookSneeze®.com <http://BookSneeze®.com> book review bloggers program. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255 <http://www.access.gpo.gov/nara/cfr/waisidx_03/16cfr255_03.html> : “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.”


Friday, August 5, 2011

Book Review: Surprised by Oxford

Surprised by Oxford: A Memoir by Carolyn Weber
(Thomas Nelson, 2011; ISBN 978-0-8499-4611-0)

Carolyn Weber’s beautifully penned memoir of her personal faith journey is a delight to read. Her descriptions of Oxford are enough to make any Anglophile salivate. As a professor of English literature and an expert in the Romantic poets, she intersperses snippets of classic poetry throughout. Her ongoing references to the poetry of John Donne and John Milton especially captured my attention, their insights having been instrumental in my own spiritual walk. In the end, I want to dust off the Norton anthologies saved from my own college lit classes and immerse myself once more.

When the author is awarded a full scholarship to do graduate work at Oxford University’s Balliol College, she hasn’t an inkling of the path on which she is setting out. In the company of her colleagues and friends, and spurred on by one particular theology student who lives across the hall, she explores the deep, existential questions that have nagged her for years. For the first time in her life she reads a Bible—what she says is “the most compelling piece of creative nonfiction I had ever read. If I sat around for thousands of years, I could never come up with what it proposes, let alone with how intricately Genesis unfolds toward Revelation.” Following in the footsteps of C.S. Lewis, the truth of God’s Word eventually leads her first to believe in God and ultimately to believe in Jesus Christ as the Son of God.

Carolyn’s journey unfurls as a twofold romance: even as she is being courted by the Divine Lover, she is also courted by “TDH” (Tall, Dark, & Handsome). Conversations with this particular lover of God (and with other friends, both believers and non-believers) serve as the catalyst for her search. The questions had always been there; TDH challenges her to finally seek hard after the answers. All this set against the glorious backdrop of Oxford makes the book read more like a novel—as it should, since our lives are simply stories that play out in the context of God’s Story.

After traveling alongside the author through the ups and downs of an entire academic year, I was a little (only a little, mind you) disappointed at how she wrapped up loose ends in only a few pages of epilogue. But since the setting of the book is Oxford and the story has its resolution back on this side of the pond, I suppose that’s as it should be. I was impressed with Weber’s deep love and respect for her family back home. And I resonated at her homage to Christian professors who have so generously discipled her along the way.

In the end, I came away with two thoughts. First, each person’s journey to faith in Christ is tailor-made by a loving God who knows us and desires to be known by us. Second, God does not make us travel this journey in a vacuum but fills our lives with people to keep pointing us to His truth. Thanks be to God!


Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from the publisher through the BookSneeze®.com <http://BookSneeze®.com> book review bloggers program. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255 <http://www.access.gpo.gov/nara/cfr/waisidx_03/16cfr255_03.html> : “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.”

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

The Book Lady

I wish every child had a Miss Spoelhof. I can directly trace my love of reading to this dear woman. Miss S. taught kindergarten in the Grand Rapids Christian Schools, although by the time I knew her she was retired. She had delft-blue eyes and her hair was silver-white. She had never married, and like my mom, her family roots went back to New Jersey.

Miss Spoelhof was a friend of my parents, and my dad would keep her 1965(ish) Chevy Nova sedan in good working order. Mind you, this was not a muscle car. It was a white four-door with white and tan interior, I think. While Dad did routine maintenance or repairs on the car, Miss S. would come in the house and visit with my mom. She never came without a book. In fact, when I was very small and names held little meaning, Mom would simply say "The book lady is coming for coffee today" and I'd know who she meant. I was about four years old when Miss Spoelhof gave me a scratch-n-sniff book of fairy tales that I still have today. I enjoyed sharing it with Ben when he was a preschooler. The strawberry tart that Red Riding Hood brings to her grandma still smells tantalizing after all these years!

On another of her visits, Miss Spoelhof brought me little wooden rocking chair. It was painted white with gold accents, and it was the perfect size for a preschooler. I used to love sitting in that chair and reading a book or rocking my Baby Alive. I still have the chair; it's stored in my basement. When Ben was little I kept it upstairs in hopes that he would enjoy sitting in it, but he's never been one to sit still for long. So I keep it in hopes of one day, Lord willing, passing it on to a grandchild.

Once I began attending school and progressing in my reading, the books Miss Spoelhof brought became more challenging. Fly Away Free in first grade; Badger's Beech in second grade; Caddie Woodlawn in third grade; an illustrated hardcover of Gulliver's Travels in fourth grade. Then came a dictionary and a thesaurus--the latter I had no idea how to use at that time. One of the last books I remember her giving me was Cold Sassy Tree. I was probably around twelve or thirteen, and the plot went a bit over my head. But I reread it later in my teen years, and it's a story I still like today.

Miss Spoelhof grew older and wasn't driving as much anymore. She came to my high school graduation open house, but then I didn't see her for quite a few years. Shortly before my dad retired from his auto shop, she moved into an assisted living center and had to give up the Nova. I finished college, got married, and got too busy with my new life. Then one day my dad mentioned that he heard Miss Spoelhof had a stroke and wasn't doing well. By this time I was working full-time as an editor for Baker Academic. I discovered that I loved working with books, and Miss S. was someone who had always encouraged me in that direction. She was now in a nursing facility, and when I entered her room she didn't remember me. She vaguely remembered my dad taking care of her car when I told her I was Rich's daughter.

I felt awkward and thought of leaving, but then I mentioned the white rocking chair, and I saw a spark of memory in her blue eyes. She remembered that chair, and she started telling me all about how she found it. She had been on her way home one day when she saw someone setting up for a garage sale. One of the items was a child-size white rocking chair, and she had to have it. But when she pulled into the driveway and asked the price, the person refused to sell it before the sale opened at nine o'clock the next morning. So Miss S. arrived at eight o'clock the next morning and waited outside the garage doors until they opened, and she bought the chair for five dollars.

When she finished telling me the chair story, I thanked her for all the books she had brought me during my childhood. I told her that I had a degree in English and had graduated with highest honors. I told her that I was married and my husband was studying to be a minister. I told her about my job editing books and how much I loved the publishing business. I told her that God had used her to light a fire in me at an early age for the printed page and how grateful I was for that. But the curtain of memory had closed, and she asked again who I was. So I told her once more, "I'm Amy, Rich and Jule Houskamp's youngest daughter." And then I said good-bye and left.

A little over a year later, my dad called to say that Miss Spoelhof had passed away. I now had a colicky baby and lived a hundred miles away, so I wasn't able to attend her funeral. But I look forward to seeing her again someday and saying thanks again for the difference she made in my life. If only every boy and girl had someone like her to encourage the habit of books.